Emtpier still..

My vision begins to blur, The glass sky, the color of the wind, The merry-go-round playing alone, I wave, My somehow faded voice is more important to me than my guilty conscience, Tomorrow i sleep, leaving myself behind, Emptier still than any tears of comedy, Left to be just taken, Left to be just damaged, Here...
In the dark morning, i pretend the window to be a picture frame, I wake my sleeping skin and press my hand against this wet piece of picture, Spring blossoms and the petals fall, giving life to the river, Swaying from side to side, where will you go?I put my hand on the heavy and closed door, The remains of the parade, The silence laughs along with the fact that i won't be sleeping again tonight,
Emptier still than any tears of comedy, Left to be just taken, Left to be just damaged, Here, let there be love... The jokingly-dancing seasons endlessly hurt, Left to be just taken, Left to be just damaged, And to be melted by the dreams i hold out,
I bleed as my way of compensating everything to you, How heavy is blood?Happiness and sadness lie too close, The hand that will be born tomorrow, will be simply pure and nothing else, I can barely see you now with all these tears,
Emptier still than any tears of comedy, Left to be just taken, Left to be just damaged, Here, let there be love... There is a ferris wheel, where i can look down and see you from, The melody that just comes crumbling down is also so sweet and beautiful, it's frightening, The shadow exposed by the sun is branded into my memory, And it touches my heart more than any shallow words combined.

i heard once that the Japanese translation (not official) and official translation of Glass Skin are different. Well i was some emo kids youtube channel, planning on laughing at it since he was all 'yeah, kyo cuts. so do i.' i say emo not cuz he cuts, but because his name was "emoguy1993" me:hahaha loser. so anyway, these lyrics where on his page and i didnt know what song there from, then i googled a peice of it and it came up as Glass Skin. i am in utter shock. i can hardly even think. these lyrics...kyo has written his fair share of powerful lyrics (ha. like all.) but these really....there is nothing in these lyrics i can say "yeah. thats how i feel." because these lyrics are not telling whats going on in his head..its whats going on physically..and its beautiful. they capture the setting and the atmosphere..in his mind perfectly. its just so perfect. maybe i am in awe because i write and i admire things like this. but i didnt know kyo was capable of this. not that i ever thought he was not a genius, because i always knew that its just...this is+ like another step up for kyo that i didnt even know existed. this is not a poem, like the others. this is a story. and wow. iv never ever had a favorite Dir en grey lyrics because so many of them are beautiful or sickening and passionate and powerful..no matter how twisted. but this...i think this is my favorite. i have no words. the only thing in this song i can say "i relate to" is "the silence laughs along with the fact that i wont be sleeping again tonight." i get that. but thats it. oh my god. whats anyone else's take on the not official translation of Glass Skin? who think they shouldnt have changed it? i dont know why he did....this is beautiful.

"iv listened to Dir en grey longer than yooouuuuu!!!"

does it matter? honestly. who cares. just because you'v known about them longer doesnt make you a bigger or better fan. it also most certainly does not make you a loyal fan. actaully, the fans i meet (online)...the longer they say they'v known them, the more "old diru" savvy they are. the newer fans (2-3 years maybe..), the more open minded they are about the style, weather it be visual, punk or ..now. im not saying one fan is better than another but...you old fans just remind me of old men and women who are like "i just dont like the way things are these days! in MY day..." thats what its like. it is so annoying. now, i wish i did know them longer than i have (about a year, maybe less) but that doesnt mean that i dont know as much about them as the next person. and its not even about that. its about love, not knowledge. im sure there are old fans who love them now, and im sure their are new fans who hate their current style. buy i hate when people call themselves fans and then go and bash about their current style, in music or looks.
on a happier note, i had a dream Kyo hugged me last night. he also had this black and purple visor (yeah like old women hats) and i put it on, staired at it for a while..then took it off. but their was this small table between us and i asked for a hug, and he gave it to me =) it was a really long hug too^^ but i would have been just as happy even with a little hug. im kind of getting depressed over these dreams. its so aweful having him for just a few moments then waking up and realizing it wasnt even true. i hate it. i dont know if i would rather only get to be with him for a little while in my dreams and have to wake up and deal with it, or not have them at all. even though my Kyo dreams are rare (i mostly dream about shinya, and he's been really mad at me the last few dreams..)..it still hurts. i dont know, its just when i wake up it makes everything seem like its not worth being here. maybe its because im having bad day..idk. ja~