Bottom of Death Valley

first, i dreampt (?) of Shinya-sama again last night, it was OOC so i didnt mourn to much when i woke. Well, i did wine and try to convince myslf just 5 more minutes of sleep wouldnt hurt but, i didnt wine about my Shin-chan leaving. because, well, he wasnt himself in personality. although, i did have ANOTHER Dir en grey dream last night, it was very very very cute! it was like...wow adorable! it was in a scary house and bad things were happening but have you read a fanfic from when Dir en grey was still VK or at least one thats a few years old? youll notice kyo's character is always like hyper or sleepy and stuff. thats how he was in my dream. kawaii. (sorry kyo)

BOTTOM OF DEATH VALLEY
I've packed up everything I loved in the trunk ofthe car over there putting in the key, I'm goingfor a last drive from the cliff I'll be free...My Sister, Obscene Sister fucked toyed withdrowned My Sister, Lustful Sister if you noticethe white ocean floor My Sister, Mother Is Sistermother loved the white ocean My Sister, Drug Addiction (RI Will Go To The Heaven Playing The Suicide I Will Go To The HellI've left behind everything I loved through thedoor of hope that's down there with my right handI catch hold of hands that won't stop trembling soI won't notice the tears she hides from menow my child and I are packed in together sleepingdown there in the trunk of the car

shinya

another dream. i know i ususally only write on here when i dream about them. i actually have another poem im going to post sometime. but whatever. this is more important. i was in this giant audatoriam thingy and Dir en grey, along with some other band were on the stage. no playing music btw, very strange. Die wasnt there. Kyo was back stage. so they let people come up and meet them 'n stuff and i saw Kaoru first. his hair was about shoulder length and black and purple. just like it used to be. i promise, i didnt go back im time in this dream its just..i dont know what was going on but they all were dress...visual. except kyo. well really, do you guys remember what shinya wore in the Child Prey video when he was on the drums, the black cloak and hoad thingy? yeah well thats what they were all wearing! strange, anyhow yeah so i saw Kaoru first he was happy and saying hi and talking and stuff, he gave me a hug ^^ and then i met Toshiya (remember the bat wings things coming out of his head in Garden PV? yeah..) and he seemed really tired so..um...i just gave his a hug and said i love you. haha, and then i was like "ooo weres Shinya?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! I HAVE TO MEET SHINYA!!" and then i saw him. long redish purplish hair. i walked up to him (i was wearing my gothic lolita shoes= high high heels!) and i almost feel twice! and he kinda laughed but not in a big way and then i give him a hug. and dammit he said something to me but i cant remember! then i said "i thought you didnt wear heels anymore" and dammit i forget what he sais again! but it was like "sometimes.." and then HE GAVE ME A HUG! and then he asked me to go sit down with him so i was like yay yay yay! and we were sittin' 'n talking...though i dont really remember about what. but i was all (in my head) 'i am the true successor of Shinya! i could be shinya!' cuz...idk why, sometimes i remind myself of him but..i was getting carried away. oh well, then i dont freaking know why! but my etartd dream self GOT UP. AND LEFT. wwhhhaaaaaa???? im so mad at myself! anyway so, best dream ever! im so growing my hair ALL the way out now and dyeing it....im not sure yet. but! it'll be shinya-like <3 then i started to have another stupid dream about my grandmaws house catching on fire and my brother and sister being in it. but, they didnt die so cares about that. right? yeah! so, visual kei Dir en grey NOW?! it was strange, i was just wee bit confused but..ehh...theyd do it for the fans eh? i love them no matter what <333

got new hot kyo pics on my phone <3

i had a dream the other night, i was to meet kyo, he shook my hand, but he didnt let go! it was amazing! it was so real! amazing! i had a another dream, with just shinya in it, i remember it was weird. he was just sitting there, looking THROUGH a picture frame, it was infront of him, it was like he was supposed to be the beautiful person in the picture but he was really sad and he he kept moving and almost cried. weird. it may have something to do with the story im working on. shinya is in it and it soo freaking sad! that might be why i saw him crying in my dreams. nothing amazing, uhh i think Kyo's voice is better now, actually i know it is ^^ im about to to Dir en grey website so i can check tours again^^ i WAS stalking their website and myspace's, but i havnt been doing much latley. but i reallt want to see if theyv got new tour dates up (hoping for america!), iv also been thinking "hmm, when will they have a new single?" because you know, this is very exciting for me becuase i wasnt big fan befor UROBOROS came out so i never had luxury to be there when a new single came out. not that i only like uororboros. no no way! it just happened to be after UROBOROS cam out that i really got into them! it doesnt seem like a long time, but i love them and their my life <333 sayonara~