shinya

another dream. i know i ususally only write on here when i dream about them. i actually have another poem im going to post sometime. but whatever. this is more important. i was in this giant audatoriam thingy and Dir en grey, along with some other band were on the stage. no playing music btw, very strange. Die wasnt there. Kyo was back stage. so they let people come up and meet them 'n stuff and i saw Kaoru first. his hair was about shoulder length and black and purple. just like it used to be. i promise, i didnt go back im time in this dream its just..i dont know what was going on but they all were dress...visual. except kyo. well really, do you guys remember what shinya wore in the Child Prey video when he was on the drums, the black cloak and hoad thingy? yeah well thats what they were all wearing! strange, anyhow yeah so i saw Kaoru first he was happy and saying hi and talking and stuff, he gave me a hug ^^ and then i met Toshiya (remember the bat wings things coming out of his head in Garden PV? yeah..) and he seemed really tired so..um...i just gave his a hug and said i love you. haha, and then i was like "ooo weres Shinya?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! I HAVE TO MEET SHINYA!!" and then i saw him. long redish purplish hair. i walked up to him (i was wearing my gothic lolita shoes= high high heels!) and i almost feel twice! and he kinda laughed but not in a big way and then i give him a hug. and dammit he said something to me but i cant remember! then i said "i thought you didnt wear heels anymore" and dammit i forget what he sais again! but it was like "sometimes.." and then HE GAVE ME A HUG! and then he asked me to go sit down with him so i was like yay yay yay! and we were sittin' 'n talking...though i dont really remember about what. but i was all (in my head) 'i am the true successor of Shinya! i could be shinya!' cuz...idk why, sometimes i remind myself of him but..i was getting carried away. oh well, then i dont freaking know why! but my etartd dream self GOT UP. AND LEFT. wwhhhaaaaaa???? im so mad at myself! anyway so, best dream ever! im so growing my hair ALL the way out now and dyeing it....im not sure yet. but! it'll be shinya-like <3 then i started to have another stupid dream about my grandmaws house catching on fire and my brother and sister being in it. but, they didnt die so cares about that. right? yeah! so, visual kei Dir en grey NOW?! it was strange, i was just wee bit confused but..ehh...theyd do it for the fans eh? i love them no matter what <333